What am I to do?

What am I to do?

I have been going to the same church now for more than 20 years.
I love going to this church, I watched the littlies grow up and get married and have their children.

I watched them grow from 3 and 4 year olds, to now having their own babies.

But.....and it's a big "but" I am feeling discontent and almost dread going, for the last year or so.

I broke it down to going once every 2 weeks......I was almost relieved, when my "don't have to go today" came around.
What is wrong with me????

Sure, I am not so young anymore, but that should not matter....should it?

The lady next to me, brings earplugs, because, as she says, "The music is deafening!"
Could that be it?
It is very loud, although I did hear someone say the chappie in charge of music could have a hearing problem.
Many times some have asked could the music be turned down some, the pastor says, "no"

I listened again last Sunday, and it seemed like the pastor was talking to a Sunday school class....all milk and no meat....
Could that be it?

I did mention to another person that I thought I might not come back, as I was not getting much out of it anymore....
she thought I should keep coming as an example for others.
But, somehow I don't think I make a very good example, sitting there, not getting anything out of it...
I do go to a midweek meeting, we are studying the book of Genesis, I will admit I get a lot more out of this study than actually going to a church.

I don't know...….will have to see how I go.....I honestly don't know what to do....I live in a small country town, there are not many churches to go to, to try out to see if they are different, or more to what I might need, and, I do believe we go to a church to have a need filled.

Blessings
Yaddy